Weirdness

Anyone in my family would say what weirdness are you talking about, nothing has changed.  I feel like the odd man out and some of it is of my own doing and some of it is just circumstantial.  I guess if I were to give it any thought, say if I had continually asked someone to do something and they continually said they couldn't for one reason or another, I would stop asking.

That is how it has been with me for a long time.  Since the accident, it has been necessary for me to spend long hours alone.  I am starting to get out more now, but I think I am viewed by my family as the strange one, the one you really don't want around.  I seem to have lost my filter and I am told that I am loud and I know that I talk too much.  I interrupt conversations but that is only because if I don't say what I am thinking at the moment I am thinking it, then I forget.

On the other hand, I am basically O.K. with the way things are.  I am not in a mad love affair, although my husband and I are getting along better.  But things are status quo.  I can live with this.  Hopefully I can go upward from here.  Hopefully my doctor will find a way to get my foot healed and I can move on through physical therapy and put this behind me and get into something that I want to do.


Today has been a restful day.   I took a long nap and we all had dinner as a family and it was nice  I do have people who love me.  All of them may not invite me to hang out, but that's OK for now.


I am O.K.  Status quo...moving on..upward and onward!