Thursday, January 27, 2011

What is this all about?

Just wondering.  What has this been all about?  I think everything happens for a reason  Sometimes we make bad choices that lead us down a wrong path and then God does what He needs to do to get us back on track.  I get that and I can look back and see how he has done that so many times in my life.

But I feel like I have been "off-track" for some time now.  This thing with my foot just seems to go on and on and on.   I have some plans in my head and in my heart, but to accomplish those, I have to see some healing, some end in site.

I am sure it will come.  I know that God has not forgotten about me.  He sees me and He knows exactly where I am in my life right now and He even sees me where I will be in the future.  I have always believed that and known that.  It is a core belief within me.  I do not believe that God loses people.  Like a doctor doing everything he or she can for someone in trouble.  

I can walk away, I can shut out the beauty that is God's love within me, but He will never give up on me.  I am not trying to shut Him out but I don't feel as close as I once was which is a hard thing to admit.  But I am going to take the advice of a minister's words that someone shared with me this week  He said "the most lasting change doesn't come when we try to do everything all at once, we can't go from 0-60 all at once, but we can go from 0-1."  I am paraphrasing what I heard so it really is not a perfect quote, but it is wisdom.

So that is where I am in my life.  And today I will do something that will take me from 0-1.

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